adrift and at peace

I've lived the future over and over,
inside my head. I see the way she
had looked at me, the way she
has looked at me. I know that
she's Lois Lane to my Superman; but
when she's gone, completely absent
of my life I find it more than difficult
not to succumb to the desires of self;
misinformed that a self destructive goal
is desirable; but now I see clearly,
the world is there for the taking, I
will try to grab the destiny I see possible.
If the world is an ostler, then I will
make it into a pearl to give her on a
ring. I used to know that it was her
whom made me smile, her who did do
the things that made me feel whole,
completely special; but who then am i
to wish that upon anyone, esp. her?
She makes me happy, she makes me smile,
she makes me completely whole but who
am I to put those chains on such a
lovely bird? She soars high above the
other's and me, a poet, I am captivated by
the freedom she enjoys. I rot away,
here on the ground; my enemy, gravity
(and insecurity). One day though, sooner
than later I will again have the
chance to show her things she couldn't see;
like how pure i can really be.
Love and virtue was given to me
as a gift in birth; but the temptations of
life have left me cold, bitter, and jaded;
however! she is the only one who can leave me
completely speechless, and for this I desire
to be in presence once in a while.
She is the peace that Sookie gives vampires.