sometimes life is just so great
it's hard not to smile without grit
in your eyes, your heart beat
just pacing up as your pulse heats
your blood to a level of content.
despite the shit that came and went
when i was in my youth, back then
wasn't aware it was my prime time-
that it could have been better than crime.
but it doesn't matter much to me
cause time is infinite and i'll be
here longer than i had original
expected; but wish i could be with her.
cause i got nothing, no one- no girl
to hold and cuddle on those nights i fear
i may finally cave in, give into
those voices that taunt me relentlessly.
when i smile at the guy in the mirror
a voice reminds me that today
is the day i should try to destroy
me; leave behind a beautifually
young corpse for the world to adore.
however on days when it just can't rain
i forget that i ever felt pain or disdain
for anything other than my own cripplin'
obsession with the mistakes i made slippin'
in my past; back in the day when i wasn't a man.
wasted time spent on trying hard to be me;
so many days gone away, never ever to return so
they are marks never going to be put in history
books- my fame will come from my twisted biography.
can behave when i want to, can ace it if i try to
put so many things held me back- these things i see
in my head- not understanding it's not true;
i'm not dead, in fact the opposite seem to be the
norm here- i got so much talent, i'm way to
gifted and talented so i ain't going no where.
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